Reclaim your Life!

I've been drinking to the point of drunkeness for the past several nights. I'll come home from class with some beer or a bottle of wine and drink while watching a movie - usually something depressing or reflective of how I feel. The Punisher (2004), I Am Legend, or The Truman Show.

I have been unemployed for over a year. I have been discharged from the military, though honorably. I have been depressed all day. Not just sad, but depressed. A feeling of worthlessness. I KNOW it's the enemy. I realize this. But, I've been unemployed for over a year. While my wife is at school, I feel like I should be out working to provide income for my family instead of taking care of our kids and cleaning house. I need to work.

I haven't been reading the Word or praying lately. In fact, this morning is the first time I've really prayed in several weeks, mostly in tongues. No idea what I said, but I guess I needed it whatever it was.

I don't feel like much of a man. In fact, I'm starting to feel like bum. I need a job - any job that will pay the bills. If anybody knows anyone that is hiring, please let me know. I just want to support my family. That's all. Goodnight.

So much of our spirituality & natural life requires DISCIPLINE...

When I don't want to pray or read the Word, I know that's when I need to do it the most.
MAKE yourself get up in the morning - read & pray. Make yourself clean when you don't feel like it. Make yourself get off the couch and post your resume somewhere.

Make the most of your time with your kids - who knows when you'll have the opportunity to be a stay-at-home dad? ENJOY the season God has you in & ask for the Spirit of Revelation to show you what you need to learn & what steps you need to make.

Discipline yourself to stop at one drink - or just don't do it at all. Discipline your mind to what you allow in - ie depressing movies, pornography, etc. Every choice you make is a door that you either open or shut to the enemy.

Best of luck - if I hear of any openings, I'll be sure to let you know.

Pizza hut on Oleander is hiring.

Getting moving will help. Give up on the unemployment gig. Build one success ontop of another. Take a nothing job to start you off, pray in the Spirit all the time, I guarantee, the more you do it, the better your life will work.

Why are you spending money on alcohol?

Pray with your wife, be an excellent dad. You have time for that.

I would LOVE to get rid of the unemployment gig. $250/wk doesn't cut it. I may check out that Pizza Hut you mentioned. I've also applied at the McDonald's in Castle Hayne for a managerial position. Also, I recently completed a re-test for the NC prison system Correctional Officer position & should be completing the Behavioral Health Technician training in April.

I know - the spending money on alcohol is lame. I've cut back significantly since my last post. Let's face it, I was drinking so much to escape reality and to wallow in my problems of being unemployed, discharged, depressed, and everything else that goes with it when you have a family.

Cool! He still has some fight left in him!

something will open... just keep praying, knocking on doors, and holding onto faith... you do your part.... God will do His